|The Tower, ATU XVI.|
“When you reach the Tower, your fortunes will end & your troubles will begin.”- Brotherhood Motto
“If you should meet the Buddha on the road: Kill. Him.”- Zen Koan
You think you're enlightened? You're not. You think you've survived it all, crossed the final abyss? You haven't.
It isn't that we don't believe in Truth: we're open to the idea. We sorcerers, we-the-people-of-the-Tower, we know that it might very well exist & we encourage any who find the desire for such a quest to go on that quest. But we expect that real adults, doing real adult magick, will remember they aren't enlightened... Yet. Maybe you'll become enlightened. But in the meantime, remember that “premature enlightenment” is 100% bullshit, all the time.
How can I alleviate my anxiety?You need to learn how to meditate.
How can I create some kind of self-discipline in myself?You need to learn how to meditate.
Why?Because meditation will teach you to enter vacuity. We assure it: this is not a lie. Enough meditation for a long enough period, & during a lengthy enough timeline, & you will discover the Hidden Secret of vacuity. Once you reach that point you'll be near what John Lilly calls “the Zero-Point Hour” - a bodiless sense of virtual space in which darkness & silence extend pleasantly & infinitely in all directions. (Some keen Godform assumptions work great from within this space. Just sayin'.) At that point it will become relatively easy to begin jacking Elemental space, & within 'elemental space' you will build your elemental Astral Temples. Some GD groups have you build one at each first elemental grade. (We have no idea about how wide-spread this technique is.) It is awfully handy to have access to these spaces, as they can allow access to the astral.
How do I build an astral temple?Look up directions on how to build a Memory Palace. Adapt them to whatever occult tech you feel like. We really don't care.
I suck at visualization. How can I correct this?Two options: white-out, or black-out.- Black Out: purchase a pair of welding goggles. Buy some black paint. Paint over the lenses (or, if you want to keep the goggles intact tape black butcher paper over the lenses). Putting these goggles on will put you in a state of “black out.”- White Out: Get a shoe-box. Line the inside with white paper. On one of the small sides, puncture two holes equidistant from each other (start small & enlarge later), & add some string so it can sit on your face. Some individuals prefer to even cut grooves into the sides of the box so that their face can fit easily against the box. Now, either get a small “travel reader's light” & place it over the holes, or sit under a fuck-off bright light. Regardless, you've now entered “White Out” if you managed to figure out these instructions.For the first week, do nothing but visualize a red dot the size of a quarter into either the black-out or white-out apparatus. Once you can easily pull the dot to mind & perhaps even see it in “real time” (this can become harder if you stop practicing), move on to a red triangle. Once you can also mentally pull up the triangle, turn the triangle into a 3-dimensional & moveable Pyramid. This should be nearing the three-week to a month mark, & at the point when you can create the red pyramid & manipulate it, you should start working on visualizing male & female statues & work on seeing if you can make them 'move' while engaging the visualization process.
Did we mention that you should learn how to meditate? We seriously meant it.
Why is the Tower so important?The Tower is the House of God, the Crucible. The Tower is what happens when you've fucked up, but your head has been shoved so far up your ass that you couldn't see where you were heading. The Tower is Ego Death. Purgation. Notice the Eye of Shiva above the blasted edifice, & then snake on one side & the dove on the other? They represent the two modes of survival for those who have been caught in the shit-storm that the Tower represents, often having been lead there by illusion & delusion.
The dove is blind acceptance: a good card to reflect on, symbolically linked to the Dove at the Tower, is the Hanged Man.
The Snake is the desire to survive: the Devil, the Chariot, the Emperor. We tend to become raging assholes when we're confronted by the Tower & not ready to just – let go.
We suggest that upon reaching the Tower, you most assuredly have learned how to meditate. Then we suggest making recurrent, daily use of Austin Spare's Death Posture.
You are not who you think you are. Who you will become is entirely mysterious & up to you. & shouldn't it be such?
Dispense with the need to be seen as enlightened. We're all Fools here, in this place. Why else would we be here? & remember to laugh. A lot.
“No, Mr. Bond! I expect you to die! ”
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